A GLIMPS INSIDE ME

It’s so easy to get paint on stuff. 

About me, nothing fancy here:

Born in 1985 in Krasnodar Russia. Moved to Everett WA in 1993. Struggled through life to be where I am now. 37, working as a general contractor painting house. When finances permit to buy art supplies. And when spiritual and emotional state permits me to paint, I make art. 

When the world seems dark and doesn’t make sense. I can sit in front of a canvas and go into my own little world in my imagination. When I paint, the worry abut will I have enough money for bills goes away. The worry about the state of the world goes away. Sadness, longing. Just caught in the moment. Maybe drinking wine or listening to music. 

The longer I live, the more I learn about this world, the darker it becomes. Sometimes hope is very sparse to grasp at. But when I paint, Im in control. Mixing colors and placing the paint on the canvas is instant satisfaction. Clickkity clack and it falls into place. It all seems better.

Im, a sinner but I paint for God. Most of my life I’ve felt like the end is just around the corner. My dad and I bonded over this in life. He’s with the Lord now. I say a prayer “Lord I know its the end and I have no time to make it as an artist but I hope you can appreciate my art.” Or the book I wrote half way, I hope I can watch a life like enactment of it in heaven. Or maybe even experience the whole thing as the main character. My mind is always pondering on the possibilities in heaven for eternity. 

Sometimes I have to lay aside half my brain in order to function, to get through the day and get to tomorrow.

I paint from my imagination.

I step back a lot to see the little that I added to the painting in the whole. Sometimes a painting sits, and all thats happening to is that its getting looked at 5 seconds here and 5 seconds there just so my heart mind and soul and think on the next step, sleep on it. Sometimes its a month and sometimes its a couple of days.  

I creat. Trying to add some brightness and color to this world. Maybe those like me that don’t have the time or ability to make art can at least enjoy it. Through my art I hope to make this world a better place.